Guest Blog: Cindy Brookshire, On Reading Terminal

Yes, Mary, I read your book Terminal: Handling the Reality of Love and Loss. A popular “thin read,” I was able to fit it in my purse and carry it about for two weeks. I shared it with a new widow at an art reception at the Hylton Center, in fact.

I was touched by your book, in a way that only one who has experienced loss has. Fifteen years ago, I had to say goodbye to my husband of 16 years. He was 44 years old. I had to enter the emergency room and in one hour I had to tell my two children, ages 12 and 7, that their father was dead, and make a call to my in-laws, to tell them that their only child was gone forever – all three weeks before Christmas. The day before, it seemed like he had the flu. But he had an overwhelming infection that was too much for his impaired immune system (he was in remission from cancer).

So your account of trying to transport a body during the holidays, being faced with a houseful of possessions to deal with, handling emotions and growing up quickly were all too familiar. I had a counselor tell me to put my emotions in a box on the shelf so that I could work the tasks at hand. Trouble is, sometimes the box stays on the shelf, and the feelings get buried for years. When you have multiple losses – in your case, two parents and a miscarriage – you can leave some loved ones unmourned for decades until something triggers or unlocks the box and then the floodgates open.

Reading your book brought back not-so-positive coping strategies: Screaming in my car (no one can hear you), laying down in the elementary school soccer field in my work clothes (not good for panty hose, though the stars were pretty) and drinking shot glasses of frozen vodka (why were friends bringing me alcohol anyway? I dumped full bottles in the trash finally). Becoming a Sunday School teacher helped me crawl back to life and snap out of it. The kids made me laugh. I asked one boy what he thought God was like. He answered, “I think he smells like bacon.”

I think your parents would be proud of your book and how it will help people. It certainly fills a void – there aren’t many books addressed to loss for young adults.

For widows, a good website remains www.widownet.org.

Good luck with your new job, Mary, and balancing work with your family. Keep writing!

Cindy Brookshire is a freelance writer and a member of Write by the Rails, the Prince William Chapter of the Virginia Writers Club. Her blog is http://cookies4nataka.wordpress.com/

Balancing Act

Holy cow, the last two weeks have been crazy! After many years of being a SAHM and just freelancing as a writer, I went back to work full time as editor and writer for a local newspaper. I am thrilled at the chance to expand my career, but the challenge of working/parenting is kicking my butt. I now have a much larger amount of respect for moms who juggle parenting and working full time for years on end.

I have found myself looking in the mirror and wondering what am I trying to prove and who am I trying to prove it to this week? It is no small responsibility to raise children into decent little human beings. The SAHM is responsible for moral values, eating right and a host of other important jobs including the running of the household.

No I have chosen to add the running of a newspaper onto my already pretty full plate. I thought it wouldn't be too big a deal. But the reality is if you love what you do you really invest yourself in it. My husband yelled at me for checking my work mail in bed on Wednesday night. We have a rule that work doesn't come into the bedroom. And I almost violated that rule without even thinking for the first time ever!

My kids are feeling the transition too. The girls are used to having mommy for tuck in every night. On Thursday, I went from one job to another. I started out taking a training, came home to prep dinner, then went to the scene of a manhunt and finished my evening teaching a high level Zumba class. While I worked, my wonderful husband stepped up to the plate working 10 hours, running 3 miles, then doing homework and playing with the kids.

This week, my goal is to starting finding balance between work and family. I know women have been trying for a hundred years to achieve this goal, but I guess I'll join the struggle. I love being a mom, more than I ever thought I would, but as the kids get older I now find myself wanting to live a little more for myself.

We shall see what the next six months bring. Today, I am doing laundry and helping with a big school project. Tomorrow, it's back to work for me!

Guest Blog: Traveling in ND by Jan Rayl

Snow makes my mind think of summer vacation and warm places. At present North and South Dakota are in the snow belt in the summer they are awesome! If you are looking for a great family vacation I highly recommend the Dakotas. They are steeped in the western tradition of wide open spaces. I especially recommend; both North and South Dakota Badlands, Mount Rushmore, Crazy Horse, and general driving around the states. I have a personal goal to see all fifty states.

 While you are wandering in the Dakotas Wall Drug is a must stop for the weary traveler. There is so much to see and do at Wall Drug! That is me on the Jackalope, we have to enjoy our inner child! There are places that just beckon the traveler to stop, some for days and some for moments. Wall and Scenic are two towns that beckoned me to stop on my travels through the Dakotas.

First Scenic, SD I had never heard of this town but stumbled upon it on my way out of the Badlands of SD. The town of Scenic is in the middle of nowhere at a major crossroads coming out of the Badlands. Twila Merill is the Mayor and Owner of the Town of Scenic. You can own the town as it is for sale for $799,999 (when I first went there it was for sale for $3 million). Having been on the market now for two years the price has been reduced. It is a quaint town with lots of character. It is a pit stop when traveling in SD. The town was built in the early 900’s and has numerous western buildings that offer photo opportunities. The name Scenic fits this town; it is more about what you can see than about what you can do. There are restrooms, a country store, and dry goods where you can get some refreshments for the ride to Wall.

Wall Drug was actually a destination on my trip as I had been told about Wall Drug from many people over many years. Wall, SD is a bit more of a “tourist trap” with a really cool drug store, Wall Drug. I live in the East and I call Wall Drug the “South of the Boarder of the Mid-West.” There are kids play areas, OK so this kid did get on the jackalope for a photo op. Wall Drug claims “the world’s largest drug store.” It does go on forever and there are many things to see and shop for. There is also Navajo Indian Fry Bread, a personal favorite. There are numerous cubby holes that have a wide variety of quaint shops. Some shops are a pharmacy, ice cream shop, souvenirs shops, jewelry store, and some just plain junk. There are also old west photos, displays and historical wax displays.